What's going on!?

It's just astounding how life can come and go. It seems as though I live in a completely depreciating world. There is the moral state of the country that anyone whose lived more than 15 years can recognize as becoming more and more anthropocentric. Also, that the dollar is really losing ground on pretty much any other currency known to man. Pretty soon the beach combing jockeys won't be detecting for loose change, they'll concentrate their time on searching for wampum instead. Ha! Even the minute doesn't seem to hold the value it once did. I'm pretty sure that 60 of them used to equal an hour, but now it seems like time cuts itself in half.

With time playing its tricks on me, it makes my future almost seem far too near. How I'll use my time just seems really important. I've committed a year of my life in the Lord's service to Campus Crusade for Christ, but I've committed my entire life to Christ for all time. How will that play out for me??? As I've contemplated my future and where I'll go, I've thought about the entirety of my life to date.

People have been calling me to become a Christian since I was younger than I can remember, telling me about Christ, and I thought all I had to do was pray a prayer....but when Christ called me to follow Him, October 2003, it was a call to unconditional surrender. I now realize that God isn't satisfied with anything less than 100% of myself. He didn't call me to give 10% of my time, or 10% of my money, or for me to pray for my own well-being....He called me to be entirely magnanimous toward others and completely capitulated to Christ. We Christians have a very high calling. One that demands all of ourselves. If I follow after God with 99% of myself than I am not a disciple of Christ.

I'm reminded of the disciples...only 1 out of 12 even got to die comfortably. I truly wonder what my future holds. I'm just encouraged to know that, no matter what happens, I should 100% give my life to serve Christ because He 100% gave His life to save me....that's my life.....and that's my covenant.